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What a vicious circle...

Journal Entry: Thu Jan 12, 2012, 9:01 AM


FML.

No really, I am about to go insane.

I deal with chronic insomnia, aka, I don't sleep. Or, to be more precise, I am unable to fall asleep on my own. I can stay awake for days, and not get sleepy. Of course during those days, my body gets tired from not resting, and eventually I do break down. So, to avoid breaking down, I run through every tactic imaginable, all for the sake of knocking myself out.

So I finally fall asleep, now what?

I have horrible nightmares all night long. I know they're dreams, because they're too fucked up to be real, but they're still terrible and I usually end up forcing myself awake to end the dream. To make matters worse, I then go and do something for the rest of the night, like watch movies, because I am too scared to fall asleep again. Why should I care if I fall asleep though, the nightmare is over right? WRONG. Lots of times, my dreams continue, meaning I am stuck with my effing nightmares all over again. And if they don't continue exactly, I get stuck with something similar.

It's a vicious circle, and I just want it to end...

I've been a vegetable this week because of it. I hope it's a phase that will just pass me by... eventually... *sigh*


  • Mood: Screwed
  • Listening to: Zelda 25th Anniversary Symphony
  • Drinking: Lime Water
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*kukuchangmin Jul 11, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
So sorry to hear this CK :<
Since I can't do anything to help, I'm just hoping this will be over soon :<
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~Reini-Dragon Jan 13, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Just to let you know, I have the exact same problem. I honestly do. I wake up screaming and I stay up for days at a time because I'm either not tired or I'm to scared to go to bed. My parents think I'm crazy or that I'm faking it. I hope it gets better, Kita! DX These things can get real ugly.
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~Schilfrohr Jan 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Just a suggestion, I kind of know how you feel.

Try seeing a psychiatrist. Usually, nightmares are caused due to something in our psyche that is messing with us and the mind tries to communicate with the body that something is wrong in our heads. Nightmares can suck, I agree. I've had some god-awful ones myself.

Alternatively, you can try hypnosis. You can do either self-hypnosis (I haven't been able to do it quite well on my own, all I get is a state of meditation) or see a professional (but be careful with claimed "pros", some can be ripoffs) and maybe that can help you reach some conclusion to the problems going on.

If you're stressed, start with why you are and work your way through (I say this because I've had night terrors due to stress, fun times), or, if you think you can do it, try to go through as much of the dream as possible and interpret it. Sometimes the messages in dreams can be more strong than the ones in waking life, and sometimes a nightmare really isn't a nightmare at all (though it's not exactly common), and if you need help interpretting dreams, I can help you with that (DO NOT use dream dictionaries... they really aren't accurate at all)

Write your dreams down in a diary. I had a friend that had nightmares all the time, and the only way she could stop having them was to write them down. Worked for her, I don't know if it works for others, but dream diaries can be helpful too, whether they keep the dreams from reoccuring or not.

Anyway, that's all I can think of right now, I hope it helps in some way. Best of luck to you, dear, I hope things get better.
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